The Beginning of HOME
If you recall our last day of travel was a bit of a challenge: 34 hours of no real sleep, other than a few short cat-naps for S & I. So when we got home, it was all about survival! Ob adjusted much quicker than S & I, but he had the help of caffeine & sleep aids, soooooo that may be why! S & I spent those first 4 days at home in our pj's! I may have showered once…just saying' sleep deprivation + jet lag + new family member = me wrecked! Seriously, we didn't even go outside for those first 4 days! (Other than to set off some fireworks!) Here are some pics of those first few days…Remember, he came home on the 4th of July!
By day 5 it was time to break out the curling iron & make-up because it was time for my ultrasound appointment! This was the first family outing with EVERYONE, so we were a bit nervous. Thankfully, there were no melt-downs. S did decide at one point that he was going to lay on the ground in the waiting room. He was NOT getting up. PERIOD. But he was quiet & right by us, so we let him! The tech did a normal 2D ultrasound and then surprised me by doing a 3D one too! I've never had one of those before.
Ready to meet #5?!? It's a GIRL!!! :)
Then we went back to attempting to cocoon. I say "attempt" because it turns out I kinda stink at it! Which is weird because normally I love being home, but it turns out...
I NEED PEOPLE!Being at home, all day long was driving me a little crazy. So, I "broke" the rules and allowed some family and friends over. (Just a couple: grandparents, aunt, & two neighbor friends, I promise.) I also tried to get outside everyday. Since it's summer that's not too hard. I really think S did better with some outside activity too. We went on walks around the neighborhood, played at the park, and started taking him on errands to the pick up the other kids or a quick grocery run. (Maybe my view of cocooning was too strict? Idk??)
Then swimming lessons began for A and P and he came along and watched every day. It was nice to get a little bit of a routine going. Everything is so laid back in the summer! But the lessons were bittersweet because they were the LAST. The city voted to close the pool for money reasons, which is super depressing. All of my kids learned to swim there! I learned to swim there! It's been around for several generations. Such as asset to our little community, now gone… :(
Anniversary Time :)
In the midst of all this, Ob & I celebrated our anniversary! We didn't get a sitter and go out, because we definitely weren't comfortable leaving S yet, but we figured we could count going to China as our date!!
Shrek the Musical
A loved it so much - she saw it 3 times!!
|The Big Bad Wolf (minus his wig)|
My darling A turned 8 this summer!
|Two big helpers working on A's whoopie pies!|
|B-day present: J-aminals…this girl is very susceptible to TV advertising!!|
|No cake this year - she wanted whoopie pies made from brownies with cool whip frosting|
|He may have gotten some on his face… ;)|
|Gotta show off the bump at least a couple times during this pregnancy!|
|If Daddy had been in it, this would have been PERFECT!|
It's interesting watching S discover new things - at first he is very shy and quiet. He just sits on my lap and studies things. After about 30 minutes of observation, he's ready to give it a try. We have a little pool with the blow-up ring around the outside and that's exactly how he responded it. And then he totally enjoyed it!
|Normally it's 30 inches deep. This is when it deflated… ;)|
|Checking out the BIG kids in the neighbors BIG pool (not brave enough to get in yet…)|
|Crazy P selfie!|
|Surely these sweet boys couldn't have created this mess?!?|
|Practicing writing our letters in shaving cream|
|Why can't I get them smiling at the same time?|
|First trip to McDonald's play place - I actually hate the food, but P loves the play place!|
And, I worry the "Cocooning" Gurus would kill me for this, but in an effort to quick-hurry-up-and-squeeze-the-last-amount-of-fun-out-of-summer we actually took S and the other kiddos out to eat (twice!), shopping, and played at Chuck E. Cheese!
|Texas Roadhouse - because if you're going to take a toddler (and 3 other kiddos) out to a restaurant, you want one that's loud & you can throw peanut shells on the ground!|
|He did great & LOVED throwing shells on the ground!!|
|The handsome teenager in the group|
|Another day at Steak & Shake|
|Chuck E Cheese - Yes, a little overwhelming at first, but eventually he found a game he liked! ;)|
|The skee ball champ!|
|The BIG day - B = freshman, A = 2nd gd, P = PreK. It was a little sad not being in the pic this year. Normally it's my first day too, but with the addition of S this summer & Baby #5 in Nov, I'm taking the whole year OFF!|
Okay, so here's where I'm going to get real on ya… Like every book/blog/article said, "Adoption is hard." In fact if you had asked me during the first two weeks whether I recommended adoption, the answer probably would have been NO. :( Why?? Those first two weeks were just rough. S had some epic melt-downs. Even though (again) every book/blog/article warned me about toddler tantrums (so I can't say I didn't know they were coming), the reality is much worse than the idea!!! And S was sooo needy. Why could this boy not entertain himself for even one minute?!? I even discussed this with our social worker during our first post-placement visit. She reminded us that it's better to have a kid like that, than one that plays by himself in his room for hours. Of course, we agreed. (Our agency has been great about offering support & resources & being nonjudgmental.)
Even though rationally, I knew the adjustment was hardest one S, it was also hard on everyone else in the family. Poor P (the former baby of the family) just wanted things to go back to "normal." One day I mentioned that school was starting soon and things would go back to normal, meaning going to bed early & waking up early.
P responded, "Does that mean we're going to take S back to China? "
P, "But you said things were going to go back to normal!" ; - /
I had some selfish feelings too - I missed our old life, our old routines/patterns, and the freedom to get grandma or auntie to baby-sit at a moment's notice so we could go out on a date. I resented the fact that S changed our "comfortable" lives - which is totally ridiculous since I was the one who initiated the whole adoption! (I can feel the judgement...you may start to throw those stones now…)
Thankfully, time has softened these difficulties. S is molding into our family and I'm praying each night that I can be the mom he needs. We have been working on teaching S how to behave in a family, which we're accomplishing through lots of modeling (watching & copying the older kids) and "re-do's." Thankfully, we have a smarty on our hands (am I biased already?!?!) and he has learned so much so fast!! Both behaviors & language. I'm not worried at all about his language acquisition - he's picking it up so quickly. He's a little parrot! He can say hi, hello, bye-bye, all done, up, out, car, loud, hot, cold, more, outside, sorry, belly, butt, owie, winner, no, milk, bottle, water, yes, drink, mama, baba, daddy, UNO (yes, the card game) and all of his siblings names…pretty much anything we ask him to say! He can pair words together. He understands what he's saying too! He even repeats what I say to him each night, "Momma loves S."
And he and his siblings are bonding. He misses them terribly when they're at school and frequently asks where they are.
So if you ask me today if I recommend adoption, my answer would be, YES! In fact, I'm already thinking about the next time we adopt...but don't tell my husband that! ;)